Work in Progress

I ate a BIG MAC, 2 HONEY DIPPED DONUTS, & 12 CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES!  One day of eating like a maniac turns all of my excuses on.... I'm tired.  I'll skip the jog today.  I won't go to kickboxing class.  I just blew it anyway.  Before you know it a week goes by.  Then two and three.  I step on the scale....UP 5 pounds!  Now the guilt comes raining down like a powerful summer storm.  The shame follows quickly behind, with anger biting at my heels.  At this point I feel like I'm back to square one.  Frustrated and upset because I let myself down.  I swore I would never do this again.  But wait, it is time to regroup. No need to blame myself, beat myself up, or get discouraged.  I wouldn't treat a friend this way.  I'd support her.  So now I give myself the support I need.  I pick myself up.  Brush the crumbs off my face and begin again.  I dig deep for that kick ass attitude.   I must find it and use it!!  It's still there!!!  I must gather up all that angst about myself...I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm old, I'm not good enough.  I must use the negative to fuel MY positive.  I AM getting healthy in MIND, BODY, & SPIRIT.  I AM ENOUGH!  SO today I laced up my sneakers and went back out the door.  I'm on the journey of REVIN UP!  It's a work in progress.  We are all a work in progress.

How's your REVIN UP journey?  Please leave comments below.  I'd love to hear about your journey. 

GRACE

GRACE....simple elegance of refinement of movement.  Courteous goodwill.

As I ponder turning the BIG 5 0 there is one word that keeps coming to mind.  GRACE.  It's an item in my personality kit, if you will, that I feel I lack. 
Do those who have grace flip off the driver that cuts you off?  Does someone that has grace swear the F-word while explaining the loss of a Red Sox game?  I wonder!
When I think of GRACE I see a butterfly.  To me they are so graceful in flight.  They land softly on a  flower to gather the nectar.  With each flap of a wing their elegance is pure beauty. 
But GRACE is not just movement.  It's goodwill, generosity, and kindness.  I'd like to think I try each day to be kind.  To all humans and creatures alike.  I'm also working on inner kindness.  I think sometime we forget to give GRACE to ourselves.  That it's not selfish to say "No" to others when you may need rest.  It's okay to go to bed early.  It's okay to put yourself first. 
Thankfully I have time to practice earning GRACE to fill my kit.  It's something I think I'll be working on for years to come. (the Red Sox can really get me mad.)
Cheers to REVIN UP!


*winner of my first raffle was Vicki!!!  Congrats.  I'll be in touch.  Stay tuned for my next raffle.